Why Kindergarten scares me


My child is beginning Kindergarten.  I was not a child who easily adjusted to Kindergarten for whatever reason.  I don’t know why I cried most every day but I did and now I’m afraid my sensitive child will cry too.  Who will encourage her when I’m not there.  Who will nudge her out of her comfort zone to try new things.  Wow!  I seem really controlling.  I need to chill.  I’m not really afraid she’s going to throw a fit like I did, because she doesn’t usually do that, but nonetheless my stomach is in knots.  In short, Kindergarten scares me.  It scares me because:

  1. Children can be mean.
  2. My child can be mean.
  3. I don’t want to lose control over her time.
  4. I won’t know exactly what she’s doing.
  5. What if she doesn’t like it?  Day is too long?
  6. We will miss each other.
  7. What if she’s scared and I’m not there to console her?
  8. Getting up early is difficult.
  9. What if she doesn’t find friends?
  10. I’m just sad

and so on and so forth.  This is also all day Kindergarten.  The days are long and we’ve never been away from one another like this before.  I guess I make us sound spoiled.  I have been fortunate to be able to stay at home with her since she was born and my life has literally revolved around her.  Now what?  Believe me I am very, very appreciative of the time I have had and it has been invaluable.  I am also very thankful to have been able to see all of the milestones I may have missed otherwise.  How do I rid myself of this angst?  How can I turn this into a positive experience for both of us.  All indications are she will be a very successful Kindergartner.  She does like being home though.  I’m torn, but it’s going to happen.  I can’t control it.  There’s the control thing again.  Aaaarrrggg!


About lucygracesmom

I am a mom of one 10 year old and stepmother to three wonderful adults; ages 20, 23 and 25. The youngest child is just beginning Fifth grade at Ashland Elementary in the Gifted/Quest program. She enjoys playing violin, archery and everything scientific. Mary Stewart is beginning her last year of medical school at Case Western in Cleveland. She and her fiancé, Franklin, plan to marry next June! Charles Morgan just graduated from the College of Charleston and will be beginning Post-Baccalaureate work next month. Betsy is living the college dream at Ole Miss in Oxford studying Business and the most fun ways to party. She plans to take the LSAT next summer! We are very blessed in the family department. My husband is a lawyer specializing in Intellectual Property, computer and entertainment law. We are in the eighth year since starting our own business, Montague Law PLLC. I have the title Operational Manager which means the administrative end of the business (yuk) and now some new and fun work on the firm's website. We live in Lexington, KY or as many know it – horse country. Everything around here is horse-themed and it is a very beautiful area to live in and raise a family. I have many interests that span art, sciences, education, books, computer science and security and one of my greatest passions is design. One of my favorite blogs is Grace Bonney’s Design Sponge. I like living the simple life, spending time with my family and reading and writing about my interests in my blog. One of my hopes in developing this blog is to share with you the many things I enjoy so that you may enjoy them too. I love sharing cool information with people who appreciate it. I like pinning on Pinterest, keeping track of my high school friends, college friends and family on Facebook and don’t tell anyone, but I sometimes re-shelve books at the library because I enjoy it.

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