My child is beginning Kindergarten. I was not a child who easily adjusted to Kindergarten for whatever reason. I don’t know why I cried most every day but I did and now I’m afraid my sensitive child will cry too. Who will encourage her when I’m not there. Who will nudge her out of her comfort zone to try new things. Wow! I seem really controlling. I need to chill. I’m not really afraid she’s going to throw a fit like I did, because she doesn’t usually do that, but nonetheless my stomach is in knots. In short, Kindergarten scares me. It scares me because:
- Children can be mean.
- My child can be mean.
- I don’t want to lose control over her time.
- I won’t know exactly what she’s doing.
- What if she doesn’t like it? Day is too long?
- We will miss each other.
- What if she’s scared and I’m not there to console her?
- Getting up early is difficult.
- What if she doesn’t find friends?
- I’m just sad
and so on and so forth. This is also all day Kindergarten. The days are long and we’ve never been away from one another like this before. I guess I make us sound spoiled. I have been fortunate to be able to stay at home with her since she was born and my life has literally revolved around her. Now what? Believe me I am very, very appreciative of the time I have had and it has been invaluable. I am also very thankful to have been able to see all of the milestones I may have missed otherwise. How do I rid myself of this angst? How can I turn this into a positive experience for both of us. All indications are she will be a very successful Kindergartner. She does like being home though. I’m torn, but it’s going to happen. I can’t control it. There’s the control thing again. Aaaarrrggg!