want no waiting
guilty guess work
loathing locked in
want no waiting
guilty guess work
loathing locked in
I’ve always loved Vermeer‘s painting Girl With the Pearl Earring. I happened to catch a portion of an interesting segment on NPR this morning about the painting and I want to share it. The painting, sometimes called the “Mona Lisa of the North”, is being showcased at the de Young Museum in Golden Gate Park in San Francisco from January 26 to June 2, 2013. Mystery has always shrouded the painting. Art lovers have speculated for years wondering the origin of the girl and any specific details surrounding the painting. Since little is known about Vermeer and his muse for the painting, art lovers and critics alike have concocted their own version of the story.
The Guardian, a newspaper based in the UK, asked its readers to write in with there favorite story of who the girl is in the painting. They have posted the top 25 stories on their website. It’s worth taking a look. Meanwhile I think I’ll check out the movie and maybe re-read the book by Tracy Chevalier. While I’m doing that, I wanted to ask – “What’s your story on the painting. What do you believe the story is about Vermeer and The Girl With the Pearl Earring?”
Here are a few things I learned in 2012. There, is, of course, more, but I don’t want to bore you:
Happy New Year!
Feeling a little misunderstood today so I thought I’d post some Marilyn pics. I never tire of these.
My kindergartener rocks. She is so intelligent and such a joy to be around. Well, most of the time . . .
An exercise class is fun. Here are some cool songs: Too Close by Alex Clare (have you seen this video?), Hot Chelle Rae’s Tonight Tonight, Rihanna‘s Where Have You Been, Adele’s Rumour Has It, and Deadly Handsome Man by Marcy Playground
Do I need an exorcism or does YOUR medicine just need changed? Why does it seem like the people on medication really need everyone else to be on more medication just to make sense?
Perhaps this is a normal day for you. You do all the things you ordinarily do and feel – nothing’s different. You feel no better. You feel no worse. I wonder why? Living without living is no way to live your life. I have what I like to call my “inner tantrum”. When things aren’t going my way and they usually aren’t, my inner tantrum comes out and sometimes I can’t get out of it. It’s a stuck place where nothing seems to go right and things keep getting worse and worse. Need I say this is an anxious time for me.
I just finished reading an article in September’s Yoga Journal that is entitled “Untangling Anxiety”. Of course, I was intrigued to see what a Yoga expert would say about my inner tantrum (anxiety). My anxiety is like a security blanket for me. I’m so used to it, I believe it has become a comfort. So, if self-talk won’t help, what do you do? Perhaps you’ve heard of the “tighten/release” soother for anxiety. You breathe in as you tighten and squeeze all your muscles and exhale and release the contractions. This works for some, but not for me so much. Other ways are dancing or taking a bath to soothe yourself. These methods also do not work for me. I carry tension in my shoulders, particularly my right shoulder blade. What can I do to soothe those muscles and tame that inner tantrum?
What is the difference between anxiety and diligence? Doesn’t anxiety keep us on our toes and help us not to forget those important things we must do? Since the “inner tantrum” has become a ritual we cannot seem to get away from we must first admit we have this anxiety and we want to rid ourselves of it.
One day, perhaps, you might notice that what you have perceived as anxiety is, at its core, just pure energy.
Good news! We have the choice to experience the anxiety as an inner tantrum or excitement such as a feeling of being ready for action. This energy could begin the growth we so desperately seek.
So to recap:
This practice takes practice and you have to give yourself over to this new way of thinking for the method to possibly work. I, for one, think I will give it a try.
If you’d like to read the article it is in the September issue of Yoga Journal and written by Sally Kempton, an internationally recognized teacher of meditation and yoga philosophy. She is also the author of Meditation for the Love of It. Visit her at sallykempton.com.
She was two
Oh how the time flies
I remember the birthday,
the fireworks, the beach
and the butterflies
Next was three and it’s
like a blur
and four came but
was overpowered with
Dora the Explorer.
Now we’re at five and
she’s getting away. Fleeting
moments I wish would all
stay. I know it’s normal
but I don’t want to go with
the flow. Sometimes
I just want that little
baby who cried all
night and realize
it’s a fight I’ll never win.
Gotta let her go to Kindergarten
and walk up the stairs with that
backpack – so grown up.
I know I’m lamenting and
I’m really tired of the sassies
and things she says as she
passes. Why is it so hard
to let go of time, when it’s
all that’s been on my mind
Who? – Me
What? – Things I want to do
Where? – Everywhere
When? – ASAP
Why? – Because I think it would make me happy
How? – Pull the trigger and do them
1. Want to hike on the Appalachian Trail
2. Want to rock climb or begin rock climbing
3. Want to skydive out of an airplane
4. Want to do Pilates with a real Pilates instructor on a Reformer
5. Want to attend church and Sunday school regularly
6. Want to join a Contemplative Prayer group
7. Want to travel everywhere
8. Get a good attitude full time
9. Want to become certified fitness trainer or Pilates instructor
10. Want to own my own book store/art gallery
Here’a my Want list. What’s are your wants? and why? I’m sure there are more, but these are what come to mind right now.
One of my all time favorite paintings is Picasso‘s The Dream. I just realized today that one of my all time favorite bands, The Goo Goo Dolls lead singer, Johnny Rzeznik, has The Dream on his right upper arm. I love the painting for what it says to me – it shows the woman with her head to the side “dreaming”. I have always seen it as soothing and an “emptying out” of the days events. Wiping the slate clean if you will. I wonder if Johnny feels this way. Here’s a little bit of what Johnny says about his many tattoos, including The Dream.
YouTube Rzeznik – I will warn you this video ends rather abruptly. Sorry – not my fault
Go to hotstufftattoos to see the artist who has done many of Johnny’s tattoos
See my earlier post Goo Goo Over Rzeznik here.
I am totally crushing on chairs right now. I guess it’s not a new obsession. As I survey my basement for things I’ve long misplaced, it’s chairs I need to move to get to a certain place. The old ones can be especially heavy. I’ve collected a lot of antiques over the years and the one item I can’t seem to get a hold on is chairs. There’s an Eastlake, an Eames; to me they’re all a dream. Think of all the stories they could tell if only they could talk; of times by the fire or even darning socks. Do people darn socks anymore? Anyway, chairs is the focus of this post and feel free to post a chair of your own if you dare. In a rhyming mood today I guess.
To see super cool furniture go to Race Furniture.