Category Archives: Depression


Foreshadowing of later pool  scene?

Foreshadowing of later pool scene?

Feeling a little misunderstood today so I thought I’d post some Marilyn pics.  I never tire of these.

Marilyn Late 1940s

Marilyn Late 1940s

Marilyn scowl

Marilyn scowl

Marilyn in Korea

Marilyn in Korea

Marilyn visiting Marines in Korea

Marilyn visiting Marines in Korea


Countdown to Meltdown


mindless mind trip

running, spinning

out of control

mind mess

need less excess

panicking, sputtering

no body knows

where it will

stop and where

it will go

mind on a free fall

bending, breaking

doing all of this

has my body shaking

mind mush


do I need an exorcism or does your medicine need changed?


A Clockwork Orange at 50?! – are we desensitized to this?  Are these “ultra-violent” times? the Rolling Stones connection?  Listen to On Point with Tom Ashbrook.

Mochi thingsiPhone case and wallet.  How many of these cute things can actually exist?  Enter Crown Smartphone Pouch v2

My kindergartener rocks.  She is so intelligent and such a joy to be around.  Well, most of the time . . .

An exercise class is fun.  Here are some cool songs:  Too Close by Alex Clare (have you seen this video?), Hot Chelle Rae’s Tonight Tonight, Rihanna‘s Where Have You Been, Adele’s Rumour Has It, and Deadly Handsome Man by Marcy Playground

Do I need an exorcism or does YOUR medicine just need changed?  Why does it seem like the people on medication really need everyone else to be on more medication just to make sense?

Perfect Fall Football Food

Homemade white chili and salsa

Homemade white chili and salsa

I believe I have found the perfect Fall Football food.  This is good on that cool, Fall day and fairly easy to make.  Here’s all it takes:

White chili

The spices really make this soup great and it makes the house smell wonderful.  Also makes great leftovers.

Homemade salsa with Way Better Black Bean chips

  • 2 pints grape tomatoes
  • garlic to taste
  • cillantro to taste
  • jalapeno papper to taste

Mix in food processor and chill.  Hotness can be adjusted with jalepenos, of course.


Taming your inner tantrum

Bridge pose

Bridge pose

Perhaps this is a normal day for you.  You do all the things you ordinarily do and feel – nothing’s different.  You feel no better.  You feel no worse.  I wonder why?  Living without living is no way to live your life.  I have what I like to call my “inner tantrum”.  When things aren’t going my way and they usually aren’t, my inner tantrum comes out and sometimes I can’t get out of it.  It’s a stuck place where nothing seems to go right and things keep getting worse and worse.  Need I say this is an anxious time for me.

I just finished reading an article in September’s Yoga Journal that is entitled “Untangling Anxiety”.  Of course, I was intrigued to see what a Yoga expert would say about my inner tantrum (anxiety). My anxiety is like a security blanket for me.  I’m so used to it, I believe it has become a comfort.  So, if self-talk won’t help, what do you do?  Perhaps you’ve heard of the “tighten/release” soother for anxiety.  You breathe in as you tighten and squeeze all your muscles and exhale and release the contractions.  This works for some, but not for me so much.  Other ways are dancing or taking a bath to soothe yourself.  These methods also do not work for me.  I carry tension in my shoulders, particularly my right shoulder blade.  What can I do to soothe those muscles and tame that inner tantrum?

What is the difference between anxiety and diligence?  Doesn’t anxiety keep us on our toes and help us not to forget those important things we must do?  Since the “inner tantrum” has become a ritual we cannot seem to get away from we must first admit we have this anxiety and we want to rid ourselves of it.

One day, perhaps, you might notice that what you have perceived as anxiety is, at its core, just pure energy.

Good news!  We have the choice to experience the anxiety as an inner tantrum or excitement such as a feeling of being ready for action.  This energy could begin the growth we so desperately seek.

So to recap:

  1. Locate where anxiety is exhibiting in the body;
  2. Breathe and center in the heart;
  3. What is contributing to the anxiety?;
  4. Become aware of the thoughts – Can you let this go?;
  5. Tune into the feeling.  Can this feeling also be let go?;
  6. Find a feeling of warmth and pleasure – counter the negative with a positive

This practice takes practice and you have to give yourself over to this new way of thinking for the method to possibly work.  I, for one, think I will give it a try.

If you’d like to read the article it is in the September issue of Yoga Journal and written by Sally Kempton, an internationally recognized teacher of meditation and yoga philosophy.  She is also the author of Meditation for the Love of It. Visit her at

Why I love football and other female confessions

Tom Brady

Tom Brady

I stand in my living room and yell for Tim Tebow, Tom Brady, Wes Welker and Mark Sanchez.  I wear the shirts with their numbers and think they play incredible football, but that’s not the only reason I’m watching.  I’m watching for my heath and well-being as well.

My definition of fantasy football:  Choosing players who look great and also play well is the secret to my fantasy football team.  Yes, my team may be entirely made out of Quarterbacks and Wide Receivers, but what is a girl to do?  In short fantasy football is choosing a team that’s not only good, but looks good.  I didn’t say it was mature.

I really do love the game in all seriousness but studies show watching guys half your age run up and down a field in tight pants takes away depression.  I believe that because it happens to me every football season.  So football season begins September 5th.  What will you be doing?  De-stress your life and have depression take a hike while you cheer for your favorite players.

Why Kindergarten scares me


My child is beginning Kindergarten.  I was not a child who easily adjusted to Kindergarten for whatever reason.  I don’t know why I cried most every day but I did and now I’m afraid my sensitive child will cry too.  Who will encourage her when I’m not there.  Who will nudge her out of her comfort zone to try new things.  Wow!  I seem really controlling.  I need to chill.  I’m not really afraid she’s going to throw a fit like I did, because she doesn’t usually do that, but nonetheless my stomach is in knots.  In short, Kindergarten scares me.  It scares me because:

  1. Children can be mean.
  2. My child can be mean.
  3. I don’t want to lose control over her time.
  4. I won’t know exactly what she’s doing.
  5. What if she doesn’t like it?  Day is too long?
  6. We will miss each other.
  7. What if she’s scared and I’m not there to console her?
  8. Getting up early is difficult.
  9. What if she doesn’t find friends?
  10. I’m just sad

and so on and so forth.  This is also all day Kindergarten.  The days are long and we’ve never been away from one another like this before.  I guess I make us sound spoiled.  I have been fortunate to be able to stay at home with her since she was born and my life has literally revolved around her.  Now what?  Believe me I am very, very appreciative of the time I have had and it has been invaluable.  I am also very thankful to have been able to see all of the milestones I may have missed otherwise.  How do I rid myself of this angst?  How can I turn this into a positive experience for both of us.  All indications are she will be a very successful Kindergartner.  She does like being home though.  I’m torn, but it’s going to happen.  I can’t control it.  There’s the control thing again.  Aaaarrrggg!

If not me . . .


If not you then me.

If not me then who?

A vicious cycle

of things needing


One becomes two

then three become

a ton.

Mountains of things

but not enough time.

All I can think about is

hitting rewind.

Play it back slowly.

And then understand

why changing a light

bulb is much easier than

asking a man.


Cool Creations?


Here are some cool things I’ve found lately:

Seltzer Goods’ Seven Year Pen

Love Letter Seven Year Pen

Love Letter Seven Year Pen

Did you know you could make candle holders out of foil cupcake liners?  Please don’t use the paper ones for obvious reasons.

Use old buttons for storing earrings.  How cool is that?

Buttons as earring holders

Buttons as earring holders

And finally – Is anyone else tired of seeing the size 0 out there?  Well here’s an image of Venus as a size 0.  Yuk.

Is this really supposed to make us feel better?  What do you think about this?  Cool creation or not so cool?


Book Beginnings


I’ve been thinking a lot about reading lately since my daughter is devouring books.  What book made you a life long reader?  Mine is either the Little House series or Are You There God?  It’s Me, Margaret.

Are You There God?  It's Me, Margaret

Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret

Little House In the Big Woods

Little House In the Big Woods

Look forward to hearing from you!