Category Archives: Dreams

The Waiting Is the Hardest Part

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Waiting Marc Chagall

I love this painting – Marc Chagall‘s Waiting.  The painting is owned by the Speed Art Museum in Louisville, KY.  Several years ago my friend and I were admiring the painting and she indicated this was one of her favorites.  I have to admit at that time I didn’t have a favorite Chagall and I had never read anything about his work.  My great friend moved away and I miss having her and her observations on art.  I remembered some of the painting, but couldn’t recall the title so I emailed her and she found it!  I don’t know why, but her finding the painting and knowing the title made a big difference to me.  I think it makes me feel like my friend is closer – not all the way in Texas.  Here’s to Candyce!

For some reason my mind works in strange and mysterious ways and after she emailed me the title of the painting the song The Waiting by Tom Petty came to mind and would not leave.  I have this type of thing happen all the time.  I will be thinking about something without even knowing it and will realize a song lodged in my head and sure enough the song has something to do with some current circumstance I’m going through.

Right now I think I am in a season of waiting.  Waiting and wondering what it is I’m supposed to do.

Let’s listen to Tom Petty for a spell.  Okay – that’s better.

Now for some history on Marc Chagall and this beautifully, unusual painting:

As many of you may know, Chagall used many symbols in his paintings.  Many of his works have roosters which symbolized fertility; as many of his paintings were about or pertaining to lovers.  Marc Chagall was a Russian painter whose work stretched many different mediums.  Chagall created works in nearly every artistic medium, including painting, book illustrations, stained glass, stage sets, ceramic, tapestries and fine art prints.  Here is a list of symbols and their supposed meanings.  Take what you want from this, but it’s kind of fun to look at his paintings with the symbol meanings close at hand.

  • Cow: life par excellence – milk, meat, leather, horn, power.
  • Tree: another symbol of life.
  • Rooster: fertility, often painted together with lovers.
  • Bosom: fertility of life – Chagall had great respect for Women and it is shown in his art.
  • Fiddler: In Chagall’s village Vitebsk the fiddler made music at major events such as weddings and holidays.
  • Herring – a flying fish: Commemorates Chagall’s father who worked in a fish factory.
  • Pendulum Clock: time, and modest life.
  • Candlestick: two candles symbolize the Shabbat and the life of devout Jews.
  • Windows: Chagall’s Love of Freedom.
  • Houses of Vitebsk: Feelings for his homeland as most of these paintings were done during his years in Paris.
  • Scenes of the Circus: Creativity and Joy.
  • Horses: Freedom.
  • The Eiffel Tower: Up in the sky, another symbolic metaphor for freedom.

Candyce is still in Texas, but thanks to Chagall’s Waiting, we have been brought a little closer.  It’s true what Tom Petty says in his song, “the waiting is the hardest part.”  We will once again stroll through an art museum together, but for now we will have to be patient and use the technology at our fingertips.  We can share art online perhaps and, of course, wait.

Until next time.  Be patient and please wait.

Countdown to Meltdown

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mindless mind trip

running, spinning

out of control

mind mess

need less excess

panicking, sputtering

no body knows

where it will

stop and where

it will go

mind on a free fall

bending, breaking

doing all of this

has my body shaking

mind mush

Meltdown

Taming your inner tantrum

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Bridge pose

Bridge pose

Perhaps this is a normal day for you.  You do all the things you ordinarily do and feel – nothing’s different.  You feel no better.  You feel no worse.  I wonder why?  Living without living is no way to live your life.  I have what I like to call my “inner tantrum”.  When things aren’t going my way and they usually aren’t, my inner tantrum comes out and sometimes I can’t get out of it.  It’s a stuck place where nothing seems to go right and things keep getting worse and worse.  Need I say this is an anxious time for me.

I just finished reading an article in September’s Yoga Journal that is entitled “Untangling Anxiety”.  Of course, I was intrigued to see what a Yoga expert would say about my inner tantrum (anxiety). My anxiety is like a security blanket for me.  I’m so used to it, I believe it has become a comfort.  So, if self-talk won’t help, what do you do?  Perhaps you’ve heard of the “tighten/release” soother for anxiety.  You breathe in as you tighten and squeeze all your muscles and exhale and release the contractions.  This works for some, but not for me so much.  Other ways are dancing or taking a bath to soothe yourself.  These methods also do not work for me.  I carry tension in my shoulders, particularly my right shoulder blade.  What can I do to soothe those muscles and tame that inner tantrum?

What is the difference between anxiety and diligence?  Doesn’t anxiety keep us on our toes and help us not to forget those important things we must do?  Since the “inner tantrum” has become a ritual we cannot seem to get away from we must first admit we have this anxiety and we want to rid ourselves of it.

One day, perhaps, you might notice that what you have perceived as anxiety is, at its core, just pure energy.

Good news!  We have the choice to experience the anxiety as an inner tantrum or excitement such as a feeling of being ready for action.  This energy could begin the growth we so desperately seek.

So to recap:

  1. Locate where anxiety is exhibiting in the body;
  2. Breathe and center in the heart;
  3. What is contributing to the anxiety?;
  4. Become aware of the thoughts – Can you let this go?;
  5. Tune into the feeling.  Can this feeling also be let go?;
  6. Find a feeling of warmth and pleasure – counter the negative with a positive

This practice takes practice and you have to give yourself over to this new way of thinking for the method to possibly work.  I, for one, think I will give it a try.

If you’d like to read the article it is in the September issue of Yoga Journal and written by Sally Kempton, an internationally recognized teacher of meditation and yoga philosophy.  She is also the author of Meditation for the Love of It. Visit her at sallykempton.com.

My Best Friend

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My Best Friend

Grandpa, you’ll be my friend ’til the end.

I hear your name on the wind.

Grandpa, I love you now and I loved you then

I wish things could have been . . .

People used to criticize and scold you.

All I ever wanted to do was hold onto you.

I always felt I could understand you

and even if I couldn’t, I didn’t judge you.

I felt you deserved whatever you wanted.

Even if I did not agree.  It was not me.

I wish you were still here.

I’d tell you I love you more.

If not – what is love really for?

I need to talk to you.

I need to smell your aftershave

when I kiss you goodbye.

That smell is a lullaby.

You taught me how to ride my bike.

We never even had a fight.

You were always there for me.

You tried to teach me right from wrong

and sometimes even a little song.

Is it wrong to feel so sad?

I wouldn’t want you to be mad.

It’s just that when I think of you I well up inside

and feel like I want to hide.

Why aren’t you here when I need you most.

When you’re gone I feel so lost.

Why I love football and other female confessions

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Tom Brady

Tom Brady

I stand in my living room and yell for Tim Tebow, Tom Brady, Wes Welker and Mark Sanchez.  I wear the shirts with their numbers and think they play incredible football, but that’s not the only reason I’m watching.  I’m watching for my heath and well-being as well.

My definition of fantasy football:  Choosing players who look great and also play well is the secret to my fantasy football team.  Yes, my team may be entirely made out of Quarterbacks and Wide Receivers, but what is a girl to do?  In short fantasy football is choosing a team that’s not only good, but looks good.  I didn’t say it was mature.

I really do love the game in all seriousness but studies show watching guys half your age run up and down a field in tight pants takes away depression.  I believe that because it happens to me every football season.  So football season begins September 5th.  What will you be doing?  De-stress your life and have depression take a hike while you cheer for your favorite players.

Sites to See Potpourri

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Some cool things I have found on my travels . . .

Miniature Artists Books – I love miniatures and books

Elephant with books

Elephant with books

Making paper with seeds – good Spring gift

Yoga sleep pose – from the Yoga Journal

Stereomode site – for whatever mood ails you

Tile Coaster DIY from The Cottage Home

The 99% – not the 1%, but the 99%

feel more better – If you want to feel better go here

the jealous curator – speaks for itself

Lists of Note – lists from all walks of life

Let me know what your favorite “go to” site is right now!

just yesterday

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Just yesterday

She was two

Oh how the time flies

I remember the birthday,

the fireworks, the beach

and the butterflies

Next was three and it’s

like a blur

and four came but

was overpowered with

Dora the Explorer.

Now we’re at five and

she’s getting away.  Fleeting

moments I wish would all

stay.  I know it’s normal

but I don’t want to go with

the flow.  Sometimes

I just want that little

baby who cried all

night and realize

it’s a fight I’ll never win.

Gotta let her go to Kindergarten

and walk up the stairs with that

backpack – so grown up.

I know I’m lamenting and

I’m really tired of the sassies

and things she says as she

passes.  Why is it so hard

to let go of time, when it’s

all that’s been on my mind

sometimes.

Who?, What?, When?, Where?, Why? and How?

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Who? – Me

What? – Things I want to do

Where? – Everywhere

When? – ASAP

Why? – Because I think it would make me happy

How? – Pull the trigger and do them

1.  Want to hike on the Appalachian Trail

2.  Want to rock climb or begin rock climbing

3.  Want to skydive out of an airplane

4.  Want to do Pilates with a real Pilates instructor on a Reformer

5.  Want to attend church and Sunday school regularly

6.  Want to join a Contemplative Prayer group

7.  Want to travel everywhere

8.  Get a good attitude full time

9.  Want to become certified fitness trainer or Pilates instructor

10.  Want to own my own book store/art gallery

Here’a my Want list.  What’s are your wants? and why?  I’m sure there are more, but these are what come to mind right now.

Rzeznik Tattoos Realized

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The Dream

The Dream

One of my all time favorite paintings is Picasso‘s The Dream.  I just realized today that one of my all time favorite bands, The Goo Goo Dolls lead singer, Johnny Rzeznik, has The Dream on his right upper arm.  I love the painting for what it says to me – it shows the woman with her head to the side “dreaming”.  I have always seen it as soothing and an “emptying out” of the days events.  Wiping the slate clean if you will.  I wonder if Johnny feels this way.  Here’s a little bit of what Johnny says about his many tattoos, including The Dream.

YouTube Rzeznik – I will warn you this video ends rather abruptly.  Sorry – not my fault

Go to hotstufftattoos to see the artist who has done many of Johnny’s tattoos

See my earlier post Goo Goo Over Rzeznik here.

Rzeznik's The Dream

Rzeznik’s The Dream

 

Inspiring Interiors

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I grew up with the “Better Homes and Garden” concept that is “you should love the space you live in.”  “Make it your own.”  “Make your home your sanctuary”.  That is why these pics resonate with me so.  I can imagine myself with this type of interior and it really “sparks” those creative juices.

I love the colors, textures and patterns used.  I’m not great with this, but am improving.  Looking at pictures like this is key to finding your design style.

Just beautiful!

Just beautiful!

Love the fabric and flowers

Love the fabric and flowers